If you happen to live in Berlin and don’t know what to do on this Friday: I’m taking part in a group exhibition at Langhansstraße 99, which starts at 7pm - I’m going to be there just till 8, because of work. The exhibition will be open from 13.9.-21.9. 4-7pm and the work I show is a projection, that has something to do with a certain band..
New video titled “Cory Arcangel says ‘To upload a 10 hour youtube video is a really great hack of the system, cause it’s just ridiculous’ for 10 hours.” and its about Cory Arcangel who says “To upload a 10 hour youtube video is a really great hack of the system, cause it’s just ridiculous” for 10 hours.
Here’s a new song of my 90s-techno-with-pseudo-intellectual-german-lyrics-one-man-band, called “Attacke Attacke”. You can download the song on soundcloud or here and as there are a lot of quotes and references in it: Below there’s a picture with them, the lyrics and their translation.
The tumblr of the band is still this and the last two songs make one Ep, but I guess I’m going to revise the other song a little bit.
Zubetonieren is my other blog where I post poems in german every now and then. The one above would translate to:
Eat, drink, shit, piss, jerk, sleep. One can’t always only coquet with suicide - once in a while you got to do it, too.
"Immer wenn ich traurig bin" für 10 Stunden.
Translates something to (corn = sth. like brandy): Always when I’m sad I drink a corn. When I’m still sad, then I drink another corn. When I’m still sad then, I drink another corn. And when I’m still sad, then I start again.
Here’s a text I made two months ago about my days as a youngster in Zwickau, a German town that later would get ‘famous’ for being the home of right-wing terrorists NSU.
And now I’m on the run for a job in stage scenery/sound in a small theatre Dresden, which is what I’ve been preparing the last couple weeks. I’m really uncertain about the whole thing, especially, whether my cobbled together stuff is going to hold. But I’m going to meet an old friend there, which I haven’t seen for almost 10 years and that even would make up for all the furious involved people, when the stage falls apart in the middle of the performance.
A few days ago I suddenly got a lot of notes on two rather old works (#1, #2), apparently because they had been reblogged by Michael Stipe. I thought “Well, this is funny, so Mr. Stipe is having his Sturtevant-phase and posts everything tagged with it.” Unfortunately the reason why he reblogged the pictures was a sad one: Elaine Sturtevant had passed away.
I first encountered Elaine in a conversation with a professor at art school on December 8th, 2011. Honestly I couldn’t memorize the date now, but I still got the e-mails, when I arranged the meeting back then. And that one hour meeting, without exaggeration, changed everything: My art, my reception of other art, my perception regarding artistic value and copyright, but also other things I made: Music, Writing, well, everything. After I showed the professor my old and recent stuff I began an enthusiastic monologue about what I wanted to do in the future: “From now on I’m just gonna copy works. Because like, in the end everything is a remix of a remix. You know like: It’s all been done, nameen?” - “Weeell, nothing new - You’re singing in a choir of 1000 artists here. There is even one artist, who copies existing art works and declares them as her originals. Mhh, what was her name again… Somehow like this brand of cigarettes: Stuyvesant or something like that.” And I be like “Wat?!" No, actually I was really shocked, as if somebody punched me unexpectedly in the face for no reason. I really thought I was the only guy with that oh-so-unique Idea, but obviously it had all been done decades ago.
Soon I learned about Appropriation Art and after some googling I finally found out, who the artist was the professor had meant in the conversation: Elaine Sturtevant. So I watched videos about and with her (like the one with the scene above), read interviews, borrowed books from the library and over the years she became my main inspiration for nearly everything I made. Without knowing her I really wouldn’t be where I am now. Also, because I think I took her answer to a young woman in this video seriously: “What is the best advice you could give to young artists today?” - “Oh my god, I’ve got no idea… Work, work, think, discipline. You know it’s very tough today.” She knows best, as she and her art only and slowly got more attention in the 90ies, when she already was over 60. Surrender? Pshh, there was Sturtevant.
I’ve written a text about my days in art school, which you can download here [Pdf, German, 29 Pages], listen to the spoken version above or download the Mp3 of it here [150MB!, obviously in German as well]. To sum it up: In the text I’ve put groups like Minor Threat and Sonic Youth in a relation to art school, and how their art lasts and is well received, whilst you never could do that in an art school.
And here’s the video I mentioned 2 days ago [or click on the gif] I know, it’s sort of stupid / narcissistic to make gifs of one’s own video, but I hardly click on vids scrolling quickly through tumblr these days and I really liked the scenes. Still not convinced with the sound of the guitar, though. Ah yes: Here’s the english version of the text and here the tumblr of the one man band.
28 - I kinda like that number, mostly because of the 8, which looks like the twisted symbol for infinity. Feels like I’ve been walking in its notches for the last 28 years. And of course, I won’t be young much more. Am I even young anymore? I’m close to 30 now, but hey, I’m still in my twens, still a 20something. I’ve became an adult practically just some months ago. And still feel like a teenage fuckhead. And I’ve escaped 27 Club. But I wouldn’t appear on that list either, because I’m not famous. And I wouldn’t even care, because I’d be dead then.
So on this thursday in april I spend my birthday alone, as I always do. I never really got, why people celebrate their birthdays anyways. Another year behind, without that something of real importance would have had happen. Another number added to a reversed countdown to death of which you still don’t know, when it’s gonna happen. If nothing comes inbetween, then I’ve got about 50 summers left.
But something did actually happen this time: Remember, when I wrote on December 31st, as a kind of resolution, that I want to finish my first EP this year? Check. I’m going to record a video for the last song in the next hours, which should be done editing in a few days. Also upcoming, there will be a text about my days in art school, which is about 2/3 finished. It’s going to be a long payoff. But I’m really looking forward. The time of self-pity is over. Hopefully. Running out of money also is a good reason to actually make stuff, although of course it doesn’t feel good to be broke and not knowing where to go. It’s the same procedure as every year: “I’m not half of what I wish I was”, but maybe a quarter. I’m still here. This is happening.
Here’s the commented video, which I projected in my performance “This could be my last piece” and its ~150 sources are listed and linked in this page. So, if you have 45 minutes to spare, then I’ll you the story of my life [in german]. You can find the Filming of the Show in February here: Part 1 / Part 2. And there are two excerpts of it: #1 & #2.
The two performances themselves went well, but I’m not sure whether this is what I want. Whilst I sort of gave the answer within this doubt. I mean: People were clapping at the end, but did they really ‘understand’ something? I had the feeling, even though I made verbal errors and mistakes, that I really gave everything, but that not much of this was left, when the show was over. Short laughs, little chuckles. And then? I guess that I just try to put the energy into writing and music from now on, while the latters ‘presentations’ could have a performative character as well, if I ever appear on stage with it.
Btw, I searched for critiques of the performance earlier that day and one result led to a blog post written in Japanese, of which I thought it was spam at first, but it’s actually a Japanese guy living in Berlin, who had seen the show. Google translates the first sentence with “Performance of machine gun talking 45 minutes.” Yep, that’s seems to be appropriate.
On 1st and 2ndof April I can and will show the performance (trailer) again in HAU3 (Tempelhofer Ufer 10, Berlin) at 9:30pm/21:30Uhr, while the whole thing is starting at 7pm/19uhr. See here for more infos and tickets.
And the photo above is my uhm ‘press-photo’ for it. Wanted to sort of imitate a Morrissey-Pose (1234), but now it looks kind of a advertising for American Apparel… And if you’re wondering what’s going on with my legs: I’m sittin on tha toilet. The light in my bathroom is always so superb, that when I’m taking a dump it feels like all the descriptions of near death experiences finally make sense. Not sure what I wanted say with the stretching of the suspenders tho, but the shirt is of course a reference/theft to that Jenny Holzer-series.
Btw, I never noticed I have such big fucking ears. Guess I could be in competiton with this guy.
Finally uploaded the last song of the soon to be self released Ep by Neues Nichts. Took me ages until I finished this one, as it is the song I like the most of the 4 that are going to be on the Ep. Well, it’s not on a label and nearly nobody is going to listen to it anyway, but for me it’s quite a big thing, as I never have put out/uploaded a coherent recording ever, just single songs every now and then. And then yesterday I recorded the final bass-line, which unintentionally has almost the same notes like the one in Priests - Leave me alone, but actually you hardly can hear it, as it is heavily distorted. Try to record a video for the song in the next days too, make the artwork & some demos and then it’s “find a label”-time.. Btw, set up a facebook page earlier that day - and now was really about to say “be the first one to like” … Nah, I can’t say that. Are we talking to ourselfs again, Sebastian? We? AAAAA